Thursday, March 1, 2012


It's one in the morning or so, the apartment is quiet, and while watching the tail end of the Heat/Blazers west coast broadcast, I wonder.

I wonder about life, and what this window I have in it means. If it's a useless snapshot of ones personal consciousness, which will end, and ends forever when it does. I wonder if a million years will feel like a blink of an eye and I could re-awake in another time. I wonder, less and less these days, if I'm being judged by my actions. I wonder if Humanism could actually save the world, or if only a rigid, well formulated set of rules and regulations is man's only savior against himself.

I also wonder about other things. I wonder if Alex Levine is right, and pro wrestling is a legitimate form of entertainment and sport. I wonder if Nascar drivers piss themselves. I wonder what a guy like Gerald Wallace puts in his hair, and if Joel Pryzbilla has to order some kind of special bed to sleep in. When I'm in Europe, the hotels have 5 1/2 foot blankets ... where one is left to the old shoulder vs. foot coverage dilemma. What does Joel do there?

I wonder about nature versus nurture. I wonder what I would be like if I was born and raised in one of those dusty towns I drive by in the mid-west. I wonder if I'd still be interested in the same things, if I'd look the same, and if the personality I have would ever surface? I heard recently that Darwin may have been wrong, and the tendencies we pick up through life do physically alter our DNA for future generations. Makes sense. Shit, made sense the other way too.

When the earth being flat was the common perception, what did people think happened to all that water? I wonder what kind of game changer the scientific community will throw at me next? I already lost Pluto, and being a Scorpio ... are the Scientologists right? Are we really just vessels?

No wonder I can't sleep.


  1. This made me laugh. I thought a lot of these same things last night at around 3 am. And about Humanism: I think it still can. Or I'm trying to believe it still can.

  2. Woo! Epic return :) May be next time you can let us know if you've figured out answers to any of your ponderies? Keep on keepin' on Benny!

  3. That's deep - but remember worries over what could have been are inherently fruitless. We make choices, or others make choices for us, that are irreversible. No use worrying over those when there are short blankets to deal with.

    Oh, and trust me, the Scientologists have it all wrong. A second-rate religion from a third-rate Sci-Fi author? Puhleeze.
    Now as for the Mormons....

  4. i wonder what the general thinks about while he eats his pig bone?

  5. You should check out the series Curiosity on the Science channel, I think it'd be right up your alley:)

  6. I wonder if I'm reading George Carlin reincarnated?

    Love it!

  7. Is this warm weather and sunshine cooling your brain down a bit?

  8. One... Nascar drivers wear depends. True story. Two.. people who watch pro wrestling and genuinely enjoy it are a bit off. I think you'd still have the same brain and creativity if you lived in one of those dusty towns. You'd probably be where you are now. You have always had the most drive and determination I have ever seen in anyone. I be movin' to the Ross's next week. Hope I see your face around.